pussyfoot

today i made an experiment by staying all day at andrew's flat, which is about a 20-minute drive from mine & utterly without my forever-distraction of the internet, while he went to work so i could try to be more productive than i am in the daytime at my flat/in the city centre. i got about 4 hours of work done in all, most of which was rereading relevant parts of 900-page middlemarch, which i haven't touched since september. i think this is about as well as can be expected for any working environment of mine, so i don't deem it a failure at all. it was a little funny being there all day with just my books, head & the classical radio station, because we had plans to make sushi for dinner and i felt vaguely like a domestic housewife waiting for honey to bring home the bacon. perhaps it didn't help that i was immersed in the trials of an old-fashioned victorian world (in a time of crisis though about its fashion); man i am glad i am an empowered independent young woman, as it was anxiety-inducing enough doing this for just one full day, though mostly i was amused. and we indeed made sushi for dinner! of the salmon variety, meaning that i've broken my vegetarian spell of the past several months. i do profess sushi to be my favorite food, or really rather favorite eating experience, so allowances can be totally made. AND i just ate a lovely and unusually ripe mango. seems it has been a good food day, the right kind of indulgences.

in other news, i got my new digital camera in the mail today, which is quite thrilling. it feels suddenly like such a peculiar luxury though, after my acceptance of the other loss. happily i can now return to my full documentation mode of old, with up-to-date picture posting to accompany the words. i will try to remain devoted.

but right now, good lord i have so much work to do for this essay. i am not even wrapping my head around it all yet...which means pretty soon i will start freaking out. i think i will focus my attentions away from you until the weekend, when this spell has ended and things are a wee calmer - no need to expose the ugly side of my sporadic student-y exertions. wish brain power upon me meanwhile, it will be appreciated & utilized.

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