her stories are boring and stuff

i was catching up with my dad yesterday and i suppose in the conversation i was not highlighting the academic aspect of my life, mainly because it is not an area full of news that i imagine would be terribly interesting for other people. however, i should say that today i was just letting the thoughts about all of my projects and needs for school for the rest of the semester accumulate and i became really hyper and anxious about how busy i need to be with my work. in some ways i think this will prevent me from doing a lot of new relationship-building, at least in with any kind of new depth, but i don't think i mind too much. i have a loaded handful of really true things going here and it is more than enough already. i suppose this is what people do when they go for the abroad experience - go out, have fun, meet new people and as many of them as they can - but at this point i feel i need to be a bit more settled and homey and just read a ton of books. mostly on germans.

so basically the remainder of my time in edinburgh (it feels like so little, goodness me!) can be compartmentalized now into when things are due for my classes, when people are coming to visit or i am hoping to plan trips (london/oxford/france? and a day trip to st. andrews. i think that's all i can count on), and when my exams are. the rest of the time will consist of studying and seeing friends and going to work or class and maaaybe going out sometimes, but i hardly find the time anymore. my availability for my job is also going to gradually dwindle starting...beginning of march? which is making me anxious about money, and money for life in its forever totality, not merely abroad. i will of course figure it out, because mother necessity forces the adult version to emerge, bucked up and alert. just time to cut back on coffeeshop visits for the current hot drink of choice, the hazelnut latte, i suppose : ) and above all, clothes shopping. enough already, girly sarah.

so i suppose my news for the moment is that i just made myself an excellent mix of my favorite music so far of the new year, i spent all of this sort of rainy weekend at work and then caught up with julia for several hours today. she is staying at her godmother's flat at the moment and they have three sweet beautiful fluffy kitties, who heartened the animal lover in me and made me ever-anticipatory in an additional realm for my new domestic life in charlottesville that awaits, which includes a kitty named delilah. other than that, life abroad, truth be told it should be noted, does include burdens and work and stress and plans, however unglamourous and undiscussed most of the time. but these are the kinds of things that i love to tackle, and in a sense live for. i would be lost without my values for work and productivity and life-management, or at least pretty sad about the musts of being human.

off to read and sleep. correspondence has become slow again on my part - but it is only another thing to take up, and so will be done, for "i suppose half of writing is overcoming the revulsion you feel when you sit down to it" - i am always saying too many words, imagining myself to have a small book to write for others, and am amazed at successful conciseness in the efforts of others. but presently i will leave off, for i've had my essential little sunday evening reflection.
and so until soon and something more whimsical, i will leave you tranquilly with this image that peacably orders my desktop currently; sweet night and day dreams both-